DIVULGING MY SEX LIFE, IS INAPPROPRIATE SHE SAID

A new friend read my memoir, The Black Man, The Jewish Lady and the Road Trip, and was appalled that I had shown the poor taste of disclosing my sexual escapades when I had children and grandchildren Her exact words were, "Believe me when I tell you I have been around the block, double of you, but I would never let it be known." I have a family, children and grandchildren. I don't mean to offend you she said, but it was inappropriate and not in good taste to put your children in such a position."


I thanked the pretty lady now married for the second time for her opinion and proceeded to tell her that I think differently. This is my life and my love affair brought out honesty and openness. I told her my children who understandably did not care to read about their mom's sex life, had their copies edited. They all enjoyed my book thoroughly. "There is a lot more to my book than sex, I said. Personally, I think it will be a great lesson for my grandchildren about their ole grandma."



It brought me to believe what Echart Tolle , A New Earth is preaching. That there are two parts to us, our essence and our ego. The pretty lady's essence is wild and carefree but her ego said, "I am a mother and grandmother and I would not think of divulging what I am really like."


I have no qualms of expressing myself in my way as long as it does not hurt anyone. There is no questions that I checked with my therapist before writing my memoirs and he felt that it was my life and if I cared to disclose all of my love affair, it is my story, and I had every right to do so without any remorse.


I have also learned how differently people think about sex. Most loved reading juice, others were embarrassed for me? No, for themselves, others just skipped those parts. Like the pretty lady she wants her image to be pure to the world even though in her own words she is not.


What is your opinion????

THEY CALLED ME A RELIGIOUS WOMAN

At my yoga retreat over the Passover holidays, they celebrated the Holiday with a feast that two hundred people attended. My friend had attended the year before and told me that the service was long and tedious. So I brought a book with me, it was the Eckhart Tolle book, A New Earth, but nobody could see the title as I tried to cover it. My friend was right, it was a long long service so I took out my book and passed the time between courses and read. The next day I ran into a woman who was sitting at my table. She said, "I noticed you are a religious woman." I said, " why would you say that?" "Well, she said, I see that you brought your own bible to the Seder"...P. S. I have been called many things in my life, but never a religious woman. I had a good chuckle.

MY WONDERFUL BAHAMA YOGA RETREAT

Bent out of shape I was... The Yoga I cherished stopped interesting me for the last couple of months. I simply had lost the desire to do it; I felt o. k while walking or sitting around. Nevertheless, I chose to get back into it by booking in at the Sivinanda Yoga Retreat in the Bahamas. I found my body to be a whole different story. I was in excruciating pain for the first couple of days when I tried to get into a yoga position. I felt old. I told my roommate I had gotten old. On top of that the vegetarian food they served took its toll on my out of shape body. I literally suffered for the first 4 days thinking that I was past my prime. However, I had a lovely time meeting new people, the unbelievable turquoise water of the Caribbean soothing my body, the Hotel Atlantis next door, the new Starbucks next door all made up for my bent out of shape body. One night I ached so that my roommate ran to a friend in the night to get me Tylenol and Tiger Balm to sooth the pain.

And then on the fifth day, I arose and I was astounded to feel my new body. The pain and the toxins has passed and there I was light and free easily going into the yoga positions once again. My motto is I must never ever stop doing yoga. It really works, it is a must to keep our bodies aligned and in shape. I can understand if it is not yoga, Pilate or good stretches but young and old alike need to do keep up this practice. I know I will avoid arthritis, sciatica and all the rest if I discipline myself to keep up my practice. Good news. everyone... we can stay young and limber for ever, but we must work at it.

Since I have been home I arise at six or seven a. m. and go out in my garden to meditate and do breathing exercises. This is followed by 45- 60 min. of yoga. A hot bath or shower follows and my wonderful day has begun. Please try it, all you need is a mat, a tape or a tv yoga show....

THE EX-GIRLFRIEND, THE ONE BEFORE ME

When you meet a new boyfriend, he will usually talk about his latest past ex. He will paint an image of this person as he has known her. That image might be completely different than who that person actually is; after all they were in love and all is fair in love and war. Not many of us have the opportunity of meeting an ex girlfriend, one who loves the man as much as you do and is open and friendly enough to share her stories about their romance. Well lucky me was able to meet my last friends ex and I have fallen in love with her. No not in that way, just as a person, I can hardly imagine why he ever let such a loving precious lady go or instigated her into leaving him. I have never met a woman who shared the same intense intimacy that I had with the same man. It is quite a learning experience and extremely freeing. Thoughts I have of about him became secured; The same man is the same man. It is more fun than I ever could have imagined. Hours and hours and more hours went by and there we were still talking about him and never once mentioning to each other our sexual experience. No kiss and tell for us..To hell with him I say! She is pleasure without the emotional pain. Carol Sue

OPRAH AND ECKHART TOLLE AND ME

This is a completely amazing phenomenon. There is not much else that is more rewarding than learning about ones self. We go along believing this is the way I am. Sometimes it is good, sometimes it is not, but what ever the case we accept the fact, like it or not, that this is the way we are. Well, enter the world of Eckhart Tolle, author. He is here to show and prove that we can change rapidly from whom we thought we were to a whole new being. Well, if this is not the best news, I hardly know what else is. I have learned why I hurt, why I argue, why I love and who I love, why I have a need to argue, why I have been emotional when nobody else is, all of me is facing a new discovery. Suddenly at 72 years I have a whole new thought process. It is bizarre. and all we need do is to buy his book and go to Oprah. com and tune in to the chapters. I for one, suddenly feel free, free from myself. Let me know what you think..

The Black Man, The Jewish Woman and the Road Trip

These days I am extremely busy re-editing my book. The advanced signed copy's sold out quickly with great reviews. So, I hired an editor to make it perfection and part one is finished and excellent. I am going to begin to market it heavily, well not just yet, when it is complete. But over the weekend I went to a film fest and connected with an innovative director out in L. A. who is far from mainstream. He loved the title of my book and asked me to send him the script. I Xeroxed until I dropped writing a great cover letter, a blog and a querie. Standing in line at the P. O. was not any different than how it was when I was a kid. The lines were endless, the tellers disappear, but lo and behold it has gone to California. How exciting would it be, if before the book hits the shelf, it is grabbed up as a film? Oh yes, I can well imagine who would play the Jewish Lady and the hunk who will be the black man. I will keep you posted. I hope it does not take too long to get my YES answer.